This is officially my first post. My good friend Jennifer assured me that now that I have a baby on the way, this is the sure-fire way to journal and keep my friends and family updated on little baby boy C. We still haven't definitely given him a name. I think Jason wants to see him first or maybe he just doesn't want everyone giving their opinion on what we have decided to name our child....haha...Either way, I know that this baby is going to be an absolute miracle and I am excited and a little scared. Not scared of the birth, but how it is going to completely and totally change our lives. I wonder.....?? Should I be cherishing every single moment of peace and quiet that I have now? Will I miss just waking up when I want to and laying in bed and just talking to Jason with no interruptions? How is a baby going to change our relationship? All of these things are what scare me.
I'm sure that this whole new segment of our lives will only make us grow closer. Everyone says that it is crazy and exhausting but that you would never want to go back to the way things were before children. I'm also extremely scared of giving birth and then waking up and he's a teenager...They just don't stay babies long enough. I hope that God will give me the strength to cherish every single moment from the time that we bring him home. I can't wait to rock him to sleep and feel his sweet little baby breath on my cheek. To hear him say my name for the first time. To have him scream when his daddy comes home from work and be just too excited to see him. I know that Jason can't wait for that either! I hope that he thinks I am perfect, even though we all know that I am not! I hope that I can like his girlfriends and hopefully his wife someday! I hope that we can teach him that one bad decision or one bad friend can change the course of his life forever and that is why it is so important to make good choices. I hope that we can raise him to be strong and a leader and not a follower. That no matter what anyone else in the world thinks or how anyone else feels about him that he has all the love that he needs here at home. These are just some of my thoughts, they are scattered I know...But bare with..I am pregnant ya know!
